Slowly moving forward

Well, it's been awhile since I have updated the blog. Honestly, not much to report other than paperwork. December was a very long month. Lots of calls back and forth to our social worker. Papers lost, time lost, my mind.....lost. I had no idea this part of the adoption process would be so stressful. It's been awful, I've been awful. Grumpy, judgmental and completely crazy. I will admit it, I am a control freak and not having any control over this process is so very hard for me. But it is even worse when things go wrong and there is no good reason for it but other people making mistakes. Don't get me wrong, I am NOT perfect--it's just so hard to understand. This is a child we are talking about. A girl, boy or both is/are waiting for us to come bring them home. And we are way behind on our timeline. But through many phone calls and emails hopefully, we have things back on track. We are now waiting on our license and our home study. I am hoping to get good news tomorrow that our home study is written.

I keep telling myself that I am going to have a better attitude but I am so anxious to meet my baby!!! I have been an emotional wreck. A friend of mine, that also recently adopted, jokingly said to my husband last night "give her a break, she's pregnant." That's how I feel, those hormone rages, one minute you are laughing, next you are crying. I've heard the adoption expression, "paper pregnant" well, it's so true.

I know God has a plan for our family, maybe the child He has in mind for us isn't even born yet, so He is slowing things down....I hope that's it. I must rely on Him. I must put my trust in Him. I know it will all work out--in His time. Not mine. For my friends out there reading this, just keep reminding me of that.